Feeling Trapped

by Wendy
(Netherlands)

Hi, I'm a mother with three small kids on welfare. I have a lot of darkness in my life. The father of my kids is living with me. I know I don't want to be with him anymore, but he has a LOT of control over me. This is pretty much the circle of my life. I don't know how to get out of it. I've practiced the LoA for a while. I tried to think positive. I tried to visualize what I want not what I don't want, but it seems that I fail everyday practicing it. How do I get out of the circle of darkness and unhealthy relationships? Please help.